Through the past nine years, Jesus has been changing us. He is the head of our household, my Lord and Master.

In January 1992, when Sonya was three months old, the divorce process started.  I went back to a very demanding full time work.  Nanny Lidia and her daughter became our extended family in July the same year.  In June 1993, my employer moved office from L.A. to Newport Beach so we relocated from Santa Monica to Irvine.  In October, dad died of bone marrow cancer.  In his final week, Mom told me I had been adopted.  Because of the unspeakable divorce pain, I went for a Christian counseling session.  In serious weeping, I repented my sins (with literally no understanding of what repenting really meant) and accepted Jesus as my Savior and felt great peace.  Then, I forgot about it.

Mom came back to America with me.  She was miserable and breast cancer developed right away.  The chemo treatment started.  She walked, talked and looked like a zombie.  Kids were scared of their grandma.  At this time, I realized I had been emotionally, physically and financially bankrupt.  My life was a mess.  I was desperate for help. Personal growth and health recovery were two areas Father began to deal with me.  He used a psychologist to show me how I needed to reevaluate my values and priorities. He also used herbal supplement to get mom’s strength back after the chemo, and recover my health through the years.

In 1994, I started an organization to help single parents.  Then, I saw the hurt and sorrow of broken families was more overwhelming than my own.  It was beyond my capacity to help.  There had to be a solution to the pain and suffering, I thought. Life had to be more meaningful than all the sickness, brokenness, hopelessness and helplessness.

Life began to make sense. In October 1995, I became a born-again Christian through water baptism.  Pastors gave me discipleship training.  In the Thanksgiving week 1996, I went to Pensacola, Florida to attend a week of the Brownsville Revival services.  The Lord showered me with a spirit of repentance.  Still, I am slow. It took a while for Truth to penetrate my spirit.

Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit are three as one. This God is the true "living" (being alive) God. (The multitudes of dark statues and some with horrifying faces in Buddhist temples are "dead" gods.) Father sent His son Jesus to us two thousand years ago. Son died on the cross for our sins and was resurrected by Father. I had many sins: idolatry, pride, ignorance, self-dependence, divorce, abortion and many others. They were all forgiven at the cross. As an infant, I was adopted by a couple of loving earthly parents. Now, adopted again by heavenly Father through Jesus Christ into God’s eternal Kingdom.

Shortly after the resurrection, Son ascended to heaven to be with Father. Then, Father sent Holy Spirit to earth to be our Counselor. Few years ago, a psychologist helped me to deal with symptoms, which were the consequences of my sins - the real problems. Now, Holy Spirit directly guides me in revealing, repenting and uprooting my hidden sins. I’ve leaned to not only repent my own sins but also sins from generations above. Holy Spirit reveals Father’s Written Word in the Bible to me. He speaks Living Word into my spirit. He encourages me. He strengthens me when I become weak. He renews me when I need a fresh touch. He trains me. He is my divine Counselor indeed. Holy Spirit also gives us the tools, spiritual Gifts, so we can love and edify one another.

Since August 1995, we've been attending church regularly and involved in the ministry teams as Holy Spirit leads.  (Believers are churches, and the body of Christ. Buildings alone are not churches. They are merely places for the living churches to unite. God desires us to unite, to love and build one another up and become mature Christians.)  In the meantime, Devil continued using the broken marital relationship to taunt us.  Consequences of the Divorce surfaced in kids' behavior.  Edmond showed uncontrollable anger since three years of age. Sonya would withdraw from class and stood by herself the whole morning in preschool. She also had a digestive issue. In all this, leaders, brothers and sisters prayed earnestly for us.  Through the years, we were filled with the Holy Spirit again and again. Kids and I have received inner healing and physical healing countless times. We continue to thrive in the Lord.

Father turned the divorce into a steppingstone of on-going life discovery and victory for us.  Mom also recovered from breast cancer and received Jesus as her Savior. She is 82 years old now and enjoys her senior life in Taiwan.